I’ve spent a lot of time this week at home. I haven’t spoken out much about my health apart from being coeliac, but the past 12 months I’ve been battling something that has really changed my lifestyle, health and self confidence that I decided I wanted to keep private. Consequently, my immune system isn’t great so I can get quite ill and since February I noticed something wasn’t right. I know this is embarrassing for a lot of women to talk about, so I wanted to talk about it here as a place to share our stories and advice with each other. I was in a huge amount of pain in my pelvic area, my urine had blood in it and I would regularly lose control of my bladder. This happens often when I’m in public places and I’ve started to need to go to the toilet up to about 6 times an hour. I went for tests earlier this year but they sent me away with a few pain killers. I’m a true believer in not giving up when it comes to healthcare, so I went back and asked for more tests. Turns out I have a kidney infection, so as painful as it is, I’m relieved to finally know what it is.
So I’ve had a lot of ‘me’ time this week. We had so much rain and one night I decided to sleep up in the loft. It was amazing falling asleep and waking up to the sound of rain, I find it so comforting. Then last night Dave and I spent time outside wrapped up in blankets watching the meteor shower. I had to drag him outside but it was so worth it. If you ever get the chance to do that, take the time to go outside and look up. It’s the most beautiful thing you’ll ever see and share with someone, shooting stars and the whole sky lighting up with meteors. I don’t know why but I feel incredibly close to those who aren’t here anymore when I look at the stars.
Dave surprised me with a delivery of gluten free bread mix this week when I wasn’t feeling well. One of the things I miss the most being coeliac is freshly baked crusty bread. He found an amazing company called Rana’s Artisan Bread. After her diagnosis she set out to create the most amazing bread mixes that people could easily make at home, and she did it. I baked my first sourdough loaf this week, and I was blown away at how good is tasted and how much it smelt and looked like bread! You just mix it with water and then put it in a bag that they give you. Pop it in the oven and then 80 minutes later you have your very own gluten free loaf. It’s genius and given me so much pleasure waking up and having marmalade toast! Plus the house smells so good after I’ve just baked it.
We went for a beautiful walk at Chatsworth House in Derbyshire this week. It’s one of my favourite places to go and I’d really recommend you visit if you ever get the chance. We thought about it for a wedding venue, but I think it’s a little too grand for what we are looking for. We are still so stuck in terms of the venue, so please leave any suggestions below! I’ve just posted our wedding planning video which you can watch here, we are away in Paris in the video and I’m really excited to share this first step with you all.
And finally, onto all things beauty! First of all there are the two skincare game changers for me that I talked about above. First of all, a bit of Korean skincare. I’ve heard a lot of hype around Korean beauty products and I have to be honest the ones that I’ve tried have really disappointed me. I decided to give it one last try, this time with the AragoSpa aqua deep cream. It uses a type of thermal water which is really lightweight but fast absorbing and hydrating. First of all it smells gorgeous, quite citrusy but not too overpowering. The cream is one of the best day creams I had EVER used, both Dave and I are now fighting over it in the morning. This is good for combination or dry skin, it’s quite thick so if you have oily skin I’d look to see if they have an alternative version for you. It hydrated immediately, left my skin softer than most of my high end ones do, and is on sale for £16 if you can find a site that hasn’t sold out because it’s that good!
The second is one by Marks and Spencer beauty, Formula Absolute Ultimate Sleep Cream, that I’ve been using as a night cream. This claims to make you look like you’ve had 8 hours sleep even if you haven’t, and has sold out a number of times mainly because of the £22 price tag! I was so sceptical about this because when I haven’t had 8 hours sleep I look dreadful and no cream can help me with that! I love the texture of this, it’s incredibly moisturising, again I would say only use this if you have either combination or dry skin. Unlike the one above, you need to stick with this for about a week until you really SEE the difference. You’ll feel it straight away but after about a week I genuinely felt much better about my skin, especially because I was ill. It still doesn’t beat my all time favourite Elemis Marine cream, but it’s a winner for me if you don’t want to pay the price tag of that and I love the rose packaging!